That's all that a calender knows about half of my week. For the calender, they are merely three days of a week that it has been repeating ever since time came into existence. Not a big deal.
For me they were anything but fair. Overriding my instinct to be at the office to help out the team with extra workload (a rare one though) and running off the ISBT only to add to my knowledge the fact that I was about to be grounded for 5 hours in a PRTC bus was enough help to make me hungry by anticipation well ahead of my normal schedule!
Enough hungry, pretty much tired and drowsy from the routine onset of sleep, it was still harder to look cheerful. I was entering a house full of colorful guests and faces that just had dinner after a bout of dance. Already 1:30, we were to get up at 7 to prepare for the marriage ceremony. I hope I was at least able to look sober in the morning and not beaten up blue by fatigue of the previous night.
The surroundings at a function cheer you up and fill you with a joy to be a part of the celebration. I was no exception. The day went into being a part of-and witnessing various rituals. I had a headache by then! What the heck! How do I get back to office tomorrow? Preemted the ceremonies only to learn that the bus will be available only after 7:30 PM. Another ordeal in the bus was awaiting me!
A grand marriage ceremony though it was. All marriage functions end with everyone seeing the bride off to the groom's family with tear-soaked eyes. No one can escape the grief and sorrow that that one moment instills into the air. Everyone is aware that the lady in red is going off for a new step in her life and that many festivals and happy moments are about to follow but the grey haired fairies won't stop chanting those folk lores repeating them over and over again till there are sobs to be heard from all around. The moment sort of reconnects everyone. To each other. To their pasts and some to their futures.
Back to the bus, this one was generous enough to allow passengers have a breath of fresh air. However, it was ignorant enough too to know that it was December already! Well, life is like that sometimes...
Another great news was that I did not had the keys to the room! Reaching the room at 12:30 AM, how I managed to get the main door opened and enter my bedroom will remain a secret for ever :-)
I was not in a position to wish anyone good night...
Yawwwnnnn....
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Thursday, December 3, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
Arghh!!
Is it the changing weather ?
or is it some short circuit in my cranial circuitry?
or a screwed up meal?
or some words from someone that did not digested well?
Why is it that the self is not feeling 100% this week?
Agreed that there are a few days in a year that end up in zero accomplishment but then again we don't have to just survive on this planet like zillions of other organisms are!
To make a difference, you have to do something new each day, learn something new each day, life is only about couple of dozen K days after all. Many of them are already exhausted.
In such a situation, as I am feeling this week, when you are left with only enough mental energy to live a routine day, then it is your that instinct that causes you to surge ahead every moment that feels hurt and ignored.
You yearn to add more hours to your day, more minutes to your hours and more seconds to your minutes but something is just not working out!
Cant say what it is at the moment. Work is great because it is the routine...but it is not about routine at all. What about that instinct that keeps on poking me to add something to my mental and physical frame each day?
"Dear instinct, I will get back to you soon, only allow me to think over it for a while, it may take an hour two of introspection. But, I am not abandoning you without fulfilling your every desire till I have my senses sound enough to understand what you have to say. You have brought me here, I will always honor your call... "
I will find time for this exercise on the way to a function that I have to attend on Wednesday. A marriage party of one of my close cousins. All packed and all set.
Pack,
Set,
Go.....
Good night :)
or is it some short circuit in my cranial circuitry?
or a screwed up meal?
or some words from someone that did not digested well?
Why is it that the self is not feeling 100% this week?
Agreed that there are a few days in a year that end up in zero accomplishment but then again we don't have to just survive on this planet like zillions of other organisms are!
To make a difference, you have to do something new each day, learn something new each day, life is only about couple of dozen K days after all. Many of them are already exhausted.
In such a situation, as I am feeling this week, when you are left with only enough mental energy to live a routine day, then it is your that instinct that causes you to surge ahead every moment that feels hurt and ignored.
You yearn to add more hours to your day, more minutes to your hours and more seconds to your minutes but something is just not working out!
Cant say what it is at the moment. Work is great because it is the routine...but it is not about routine at all. What about that instinct that keeps on poking me to add something to my mental and physical frame each day?
"Dear instinct, I will get back to you soon, only allow me to think over it for a while, it may take an hour two of introspection. But, I am not abandoning you without fulfilling your every desire till I have my senses sound enough to understand what you have to say. You have brought me here, I will always honor your call... "
I will find time for this exercise on the way to a function that I have to attend on Wednesday. A marriage party of one of my close cousins. All packed and all set.
Pack,
Set,
Go.....
Good night :)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
'Mix-veg-palao' week!
Not my pet dinner this week, its the week itself this time! This is how this one has appeared before me.
Like a palao, That contains various tastes in every morsel, the week has been a mix of various moods and emotions.
Like the palao, not every morsel is a delicacy to relish, but we have to sometimes bear it when a pepper-pea lands between the molars and unleashes the bitter flavor that makes itself home on a part of your tongue for a while. The week also presented some not-very-pleasant insights into my own self that I was not-very-pleased to know about. At least, its good to know that there is something bad about you so that you can correct the same. Ready, Steady...Correct!
Like a sweet young pea from our palao that spreads its juicy sweetness and lasts for a while, some moments with few good people turned out to be as sweet.
Like the age old flavor (of our mix veg palao) that we have been enjoying till we first fell in love with its taste, this week brought in some good memories and feelings related to those back to life. A few heart warming thoughts that I never knew existed inside me and the solace of connecting with some close-to-heart friends at a still deeper level. That just acted like raita (that's a funny metaphor I know :-) )
What else? Like a satisfying meal, the week is surely directed to end in a high note :-)
Good Night
Like a palao, That contains various tastes in every morsel, the week has been a mix of various moods and emotions.
Like the palao, not every morsel is a delicacy to relish, but we have to sometimes bear it when a pepper-pea lands between the molars and unleashes the bitter flavor that makes itself home on a part of your tongue for a while. The week also presented some not-very-pleasant insights into my own self that I was not-very-pleased to know about. At least, its good to know that there is something bad about you so that you can correct the same. Ready, Steady...Correct!
Like a sweet young pea from our palao that spreads its juicy sweetness and lasts for a while, some moments with few good people turned out to be as sweet.
Like the age old flavor (of our mix veg palao) that we have been enjoying till we first fell in love with its taste, this week brought in some good memories and feelings related to those back to life. A few heart warming thoughts that I never knew existed inside me and the solace of connecting with some close-to-heart friends at a still deeper level. That just acted like raita (that's a funny metaphor I know :-) )
What else? Like a satisfying meal, the week is surely directed to end in a high note :-)
Good Night
Friday, November 20, 2009
End of the World!
Thursday.
Ended the day with end of the world!
Yes, I am talking of 2012. The sci fantasy based on the speculation that cosmic (not cosmetic you dumbo! ;) ) situation leads to instability of earth crust and ultimately tends to annihilation of planet's life forms except a few lucky ones. And a few rich ones too. The producers are capitalizing upon curiosity of human race to see how it is going to end.
It was a good show indeed. The graphics of the scale that at least I have never seen in a movie. Amazing attention to detail. The only thing it was short was a 3D show. And only distraction was a bunch of guys who came to see the special effects only and did not understood a single dialogue. They preferred gossiping when nothing significant (for them) was happening. :)
Apart from some probability calculations that did not quite fit in for me and one of my seniors who accompanied us to the show, it is worth it. How can a family escape hundreds of falling buildings and meteors of the size of a house falling meters away? Not even a splinter hitting them all the way!
Anyhow it is fiction and that's how it has to be: Not real.
The world does not end that abruptly for all the humanity put together. Geological changes are slow, mountains and seas change shape but over a period of thousands of years, research has shown. Unless it is a meteor strike; or a world war; or an alien attack!
"The world does end that abruptly for all the humanity put together"
For individuals it does. For some, it ends in a flash!
World ends when someone close to you abandons you. World ends for an athlete injured beyond healing. World ends for a businessman in a single misplaced deal. World ends for a top scorer who falls short by quarter of a percent.
World ends when our faith system fails us. And we are utterly helpless, unable to connect the failure it to any possible logical explanation. Helpless we feel and there, we see a dead end. It's the end of our world.
That was a gloomy observation. Don't know where from it popped up in my head. Lets move on. Thats the best remedy for such endings.
Take care.
Ended the day with end of the world!
Yes, I am talking of 2012. The sci fantasy based on the speculation that cosmic (not cosmetic you dumbo! ;) ) situation leads to instability of earth crust and ultimately tends to annihilation of planet's life forms except a few lucky ones. And a few rich ones too. The producers are capitalizing upon curiosity of human race to see how it is going to end.
It was a good show indeed. The graphics of the scale that at least I have never seen in a movie. Amazing attention to detail. The only thing it was short was a 3D show. And only distraction was a bunch of guys who came to see the special effects only and did not understood a single dialogue. They preferred gossiping when nothing significant (for them) was happening. :)
Apart from some probability calculations that did not quite fit in for me and one of my seniors who accompanied us to the show, it is worth it. How can a family escape hundreds of falling buildings and meteors of the size of a house falling meters away? Not even a splinter hitting them all the way!
Anyhow it is fiction and that's how it has to be: Not real.
The world does not end that abruptly for all the humanity put together. Geological changes are slow, mountains and seas change shape but over a period of thousands of years, research has shown. Unless it is a meteor strike; or a world war; or an alien attack!
"The world does end that abruptly for all the humanity put together"
For individuals it does. For some, it ends in a flash!
World ends when someone close to you abandons you. World ends for an athlete injured beyond healing. World ends for a businessman in a single misplaced deal. World ends for a top scorer who falls short by quarter of a percent.
World ends when our faith system fails us. And we are utterly helpless, unable to connect the failure it to any possible logical explanation. Helpless we feel and there, we see a dead end. It's the end of our world.
That was a gloomy observation. Don't know where from it popped up in my head. Lets move on. Thats the best remedy for such endings.
Take care.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Bad start
A drowsy head, blocked nose and an upset stomach is not the best way to start a week!! But that is what I discovered myself with when I woke up this Monday. Have traveled from home the last night which has taken its toll on my health along with the changing season to which I am still adjusting. Most of the part of Adjusting meant gathering and buying warm clothes :)
Moreover when you know that you have lots of stuff to do at the office, a partially healthy body is the last thing that you want to carry to the office. Especially when you have a rep to protect ;)
you don't want to look drowsy and lazy all the time. And such a work-day won't be a very productive one. So taking the advantage of facility provided by the company to cater to such Mondays, it seemed the best idea to relax at home and recollect my energy and attentiveness.
However, when you are all alone and there is lot to think about, we usually let unpleasant things crop up more frequently in the Devil's Home. The day went by fighting the devils and engaging in some reading stuff.
The next two days (that includes today) went mathing the pace with missed work and fortunately that it is pretty much on track owing to some solution we figured out at the last moment. Akin to a six in the last ball of the last over :)
Good Night.
Moreover when you know that you have lots of stuff to do at the office, a partially healthy body is the last thing that you want to carry to the office. Especially when you have a rep to protect ;)
you don't want to look drowsy and lazy all the time. And such a work-day won't be a very productive one. So taking the advantage of facility provided by the company to cater to such Mondays, it seemed the best idea to relax at home and recollect my energy and attentiveness.
However, when you are all alone and there is lot to think about, we usually let unpleasant things crop up more frequently in the Devil's Home. The day went by fighting the devils and engaging in some reading stuff.
The next two days (that includes today) went mathing the pace with missed work and fortunately that it is pretty much on track owing to some solution we figured out at the last moment. Akin to a six in the last ball of the last over :)
Good Night.
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